The Quilt Holes

I received this beautiful piece via email from a friend. I don’t know who the original author is. I have often spoken about life as a tapestry. When you look at it from the back, it’s a mess, but only when seen complete and from the front do you see how all the individual threads run together. I was reminded of this when I read the below story — how oftentimes we get so caught up in the struggles and trials that we forget God is the Master weaver who takes it all and can make it beautiful if we let him. (Romans 8:28)

~~The Quilt Holes~~~

As I faced my Maker at the last judgment, I knelt before the Lord along with all the other souls.

Before each of us laid our lives like the squares of a quilt in many piles; an angel sat before each of us sewing our quilt squares together into a tapestry that is our life.

But as my angel took each piece of cloth off the pile, I noticed how ragged and empty each of my squares was. They were filled with giant holes.  Each square was labeled with a part of my life that had been difficult, the challenges and temptations I was faced with in everyday life. I saw hardships that I endured, which were the largest holes of all.

I glanced around me. Nobody else had such squares.  Other than a tiny hole here and there, the other tapestries were filled with rich color and the bright hues of worldly fortune. I gazed upon my own life and was disheartened.

My angel was sewing the ragged pieces of cloth together, threadbare and empty, like binding air.

Finally the time came when each life was to be displayed, held up to the light, the scrutiny of truth.  The others rose; each in turn, holding up their tapestries.  So filled their lives had been.  My angel looked upon me and nodded for me to rise.

My gaze dropped to the ground in shame.  I hadn’t had all the earthly fortunes.  I had love in my life and laughter.  But there had also been trials of illness and wealth, and false accusations that took from me my world, as I knew it.  I had to start over many times.  I often struggled with the temptation to quit, only to somehow muster the strength to pick up and begin again.  I spent many nights on my knees in prayer, asking for help and guidance in my life.  I had often been held up to ridicule, which I endured painfully, each time offering it up to the Father in hopes that I would not melt within my skin beneath the judgmental gaze of those who unfairly judged me.

And now, I had to face the truth.  My life was what it was, and I had to accept it for what it was.

I rose and slowly lifted the combined squares of my life to the light.

An awe-filled gasp filled the air.  I gazed around at the others who stared at me with wide eyes.

Then, I looked upon the tapestry before me. Light flooded the many holes, creating an image, the face of Christ.  Then our Lord stood before me, with warmth and love in His eyes.  He said, ‘Every time you gave over your life to Me, it became My life, My hardships, and My struggles.

Each point of light in your life is when you stepped aside and let Me shine through, until there was more of Me than there was of you.’

~~~~~~May all our quilts be threadbare and worn, allowing Christ to shine through!

Moving Past Anger and Bitterness

I bought the book Real Magic: Creating Miracles in Everyday Life by Wayne Dwyer at least 3 years ago when I went on a buying binge in Barnes & Noble. The book, written in 1992, has sat unread on that same plastic shelf I put it on the day it came home from the store. One of my new year’s resolutions is to read the books I have purchased over the years – those collecting dust since they were bought. Real Magic was in the middle of such a stack, no more or less prominent than any of the other titles. Frankly, I can’t remember WHY I bought it. I’m sure it had something to do with the sub-title of creating miracles in everyday life. I do believe miracles are around us every day if we only take the time to stop and appreciate them.

Among the first pages of the book Dwyer notes an ancient Zen saying: “When the student is ready, the teacher appears.”

I’m ready for this book now.

It is about becoming more in tune with your spiritual self and living a life of service and love and purpose. In my interpretation: tuning into the Holy Spirit and God’s plan for your life. Dwyer has many detractors and tends to use some new age language, but so far in my reading he recognizes prayer as prayer, God as God, and the indwelling power of the soul and spirit. Some who prescribe to strict dogma might be offended by how he writes. I am only on the second chapter, but I am seeing themes here that I’ve read before by mainstream Christian authors, and so far, I have been inspired to dig a little deeper into my own “stuff.” A little self-soul-examination never hurt anyone.

Most of you who’ve spent any time on this blog know that I believe the negative effects of anger, bitterness, and unforgiveness include the inability to love well, experience real happiness, joy, or success. Anger and bitterness are poisons that corrode us from the inside, they ruin relationships, and yes — they can kill you. That said I want to share this particular passage from Real Magic (p. 72).

“To move past anger and bitterness, in your mind isolate one person such as you feel has wronged you at some time in your life, someone who has not repaid a long overdue debt. Perhaps an ex-spouse who left or abused you in some way, a parent or a long-lost love who jilted you. Isolate this one person in your thoughts. Now, just for a few moments, instead of feeling hate and bitterness, try to imagine yourself sending them love. Try to grasp the idea they came into your life to help you learn a lesson, and no matter how painful the lesson, they showed up in your life for a purpose. When you are able to send them love instead of hate, you will not only be healing yourself, you will be on your way to becoming a spiritual person.

Think of a wrong done to you as being like a snake bite. When you are bitten by a snake there are two sources of pain. One is the bite itself, which cannot be unbitten. It happened, it hurt and you have the mark to prove it. You then go on from there and learn how to avoid snakes in your life. The second source of the pain is the venom that is now circulating through you. This is the killer. No one has ever died from a snake bite – it is the aftershock of the venom circulating in the body that is fatal. So it is with hatred and forgiveness. The event happened. It cannot unhappen in your physical world. But the killer is the hatred and anger that continue to circulate in your system like venom, long after the bite wound has healed and disappeared. You and only you, have the power to send that killer venom out of you; that it is still present within you is your choice. Remember the sage words of Buddha,’You will not be punished for your anger; you will be punished by your anger.’ Miracle making is impossible to experience when your insides are poisoned by bitterness toward others.”

“Miracle making” in Dwyer’s interpretation is related to self empowerment and self realization. For me, it is really our own ability to tune into our God-given strengths and the power of the Holy Spirit to align and achieve God’s purpose for our lives. And I know he is correct. You CANNOT find peace and your purpose when you are poisoned by anger and bitterness.

I’m not asking you to buy into Dwyer’s philosophy – or by his book- but I encourage you to take this challenge. Imagine one person for whom you harbor anger, bitterness, resentment. Hate.

Let it go.

Hold a positive thought about that person. Imagine embracing them. .. Let the poison of anger and bitterness leave your body and mind.

  • “For if you forgive men when they sin agaimst you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.” Matthew 6: 14-15
  • “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” Luke 6: 37-38.